Cora: *much more calmly* You are angry as I expected... It saddens my heart to hear of your awful experience. I am not getting into a pity contest with you in regards to my own. My pain is mine alone and is not what matters here. Who we are talking about is Kaine, this is the true issue and the one I won't sully with tales of self-loathing and pity.
Cora: Let me ask you Tai, have you even talked to Kaine about his feelings on this? Have you messaged him? Do you know how he's feeling right now? Putting aside our current differences, the three of us now have something in common... loved ones that are not loving us the way we would wish. I am often right about how people are feeling Tai, and I feel that Kaine felt rejected by Shiki. The three of us know that feeling more then most.. try to understand why I am angry at Shiki. Shiki and V seemed to have been rejecting Kaine and I for darker reasons then Naoki may be rejecting you... his innocence puts a barrier between the two of you. Their indesicion puts up the barrier between us and Vincent and Shiki.
Cora: Kaine's situation is particularly painful to me because I can relate it so simliarly to my own. He has sounded sad and this wounds me because he is my friend. I am angry at Shiki for wounding my friend. I don't think this is a crime.
Cora: Whatever the case, as I said before I expected you to be angry with me - so I am not surprised. I don't know if you meant to imply in your last message that I was a whore... if you did, I don't disagree with you. Perhaps I am a whore... but I am a whore, that like Kaine, longs to give love to someone who won't decide whether or not to love me back. I feel his pain more acutely then most and lash out greatly for my friend who I felt suffered unfairly. If this is wrong to you I am sorry, and I am sorry that you feel insulted as I did when I felt you were lecturing me as you would a child. I am a... *smiles* lover, not a fighter. Byebye.
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