Cora: Tai... I am so glad to hear from you. Your words are more comfort to me then you know... I never thought that love would feel differently for different people... that never even occured to me at all...
Cora: You were really right about the comparison with a brick.. *smiles* That is exactly what it felt like.. still feels like... you are right.. I will never stop loving him. I have already given him too much.. the only thing I can do.... is hope that someday he will love me in return....
Cora: *looks down* As for Bhudo... I just don't know. Your advice is the "Why not?" approach... I have never been someone's "girlfriend" before... I know nothing about this... I don't know anything about relationships.. *sighs* and I only ever screw things up when I start to care about people... I do care about Bhudo, whether or not it's love or not... I don't know... but I was afraid in the beginning of screwing it up, and now we're fighting and he's keeping secrets from me...
Cora: I.. I am not being very strong about this Tai. I asked Eden to take my phone away to keep myself from contacting him. Something bad has happened and he wound up really injured.. but I don't know what - I don't even know what's going on. People are not telling me anything at all... I am so very worried, Tai. But what can I do that I haven't already done?
Cora: It's hard... I really want to talk to him... but everytime I do I just end up hurt. It's so hard.. what am I supposed to do? *smiles wanly* Buns made for sex huh? You are incorrigible, Tai... I agree with you whole-heartedly on Bhudo's attractiveness... it is so hard for me to differentiate my feelings... I just don't know how I feel....
Cora: As for Dru... I don't know either... something feels off. I do care about him... but when I kiss him... I don't know... it's strange. He seems hesitant and confused.. and to be honest I find myself feeling the same way. I don't want to mess things up with Dru.. but Eden says the only way I will know is if I go down the path a while first... what do you suggest I should do?
Cora: *shakes her head* This idea of sex between friends... it doesn't work for me. I've not been with a man for five years waiting for love.... I know that Dru too has been waiting for true love. To break our time of celibacy and have the whole cause we've been fighting for wasted... that is not something we can do. I want to love Dru... he is sweet and kind and a gentleman... he would always be kind to me always.... is there something wrong with me that I don't love him immediately?
Cora: Listen to me... enough of me whining at you. Please tell Naoki I said hi and that he's very, very sweet. I love to hear from the both of you.. if he ever needs someone to talk to I would be glad to speak with him, I don't mind his.. uhh.. communication problems at all, after all I do live with Witten who speaks not at all and of course *snickers* with Niko... and I think Naoki speaks much better then Niko most of the time! Heehee! Please write me back soon <3 Byebye.
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