I don't mind that you translated for him Corina. In truth, when enraged as I was, I return to my native speech. Yes I love Deimos. He saved Anschul from death once and I will forever love him for it. He tied his very life essence to my brother's. Anschul dies if Deimos dies. I convinced myself that love was something more and offered myself. He refused. Curse fate or whatever you call it for making me his soulcall so very many years later. This would have been done long ago had he not refused me time and time again.
Neither you nor Locke understand what we sacrifice with soulcall, and I doubt you ever will. Soulcall binds me to Deimos for eternity. He cannot release me or both die.
*hysterical laughter*
A cruel trick nature plays on us. However, as long as he does not seal me to him, I am free. Neither of us want a sealing. Honestly....I am too tired to care what either Deimos or Locke wants. I no longer have any fight left. Deimos has called me to him tonight. By morning all will be done.
I cannot lie, Corina. None of us can. Can you imagine nearly an entire world of people who cannot lie? That is Gaer. All of us live on the edge of the sword. Death breathes on us daily. Lying is too painful for the rest of us. Only Daemonites can lie.
Hahahahah! Like a pig to the slaughter house I believe you say. Don't worry over me Corina. If I think you are worrying overmuch, I will pull away from you until the baby is born.
I will not release him. I chose him over all else. And he will pay the price I ask because I too, know he has it. The beautiful Purgatory and the adorable Xerxes are too happy to be with a heartless monster. They glow with his love. I am giving him mine. He will give me my price. I will take nothing less. My sacrifice will not be for naught.
You tell Locke for me the next time he decides to hear me*gasp* he will look me in the damn eye! *hiccoup* I am sorry you were pulled into this. *sob* Goodnight Corina. I shame myself by showing you my tears.
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