((sorry the photos are so grainy/fuzzy. My flash didn't want to work for about half the time here >< God it's hard to write this stuff sometimes and remember that Tai doesnt' know everything I do!))
Tai: Hiya Princess! Y'know, I dont' mind telling it straight because I've found that in the end you get the truth from other people in turn. Less games and more honesty which I really value.
Tai: I'm sorry to hear you are fighting with Bhudo, that's never fun, to fight with a friend. Especially if you are trying to decide whether it's just friendship or love or lust on your own side of things. I'm glad to hear he's good with Cami though - being as I don't much care for kids myself I admire a man who can deal with them.
Tai: How can you tell if you love him? Well...first of all keep this in mind: no two Loves are going to be the same. Remember what I said about the pieces of your heart? And how the big pieces are the very special ones? Well, just like the people you might give those pieces too - the pieces themselves are going to be different. Don't expect that if you love Bhudo it's going to feel the same as it does when you love V because it won't.
Tai: Take my own situation... When I fell in love before it was a sort of love where I looked at him and he was everything that a great person should be. I wanted to be with him and have him protect me and just absorb his strength through our closeness...being with him made me feel like I was more special somehow. If he had asked me to give up everything to be with him I would have in a heartbeat because just being near him made me feel complete.
Tai: But with Naoki...it's so different, Princess. Yes, I want to be near him all the time, but I want to be the protector. I can't stand to see him sad, or hurting and when I do my heart wants to explode from pain. I would do anything to stop him from being troubled and anything just to see him smile. And it might surprise some people, but I don't really want to have sex with him. I mean...if he ever wanted that kind of closeness I think I'd attained nirvana...but so long as I can be with him, feel the warmth of him, know that he's happy...it's all I need.
Tai: So don't waste time trying to compare your love for V with what you are feeling for Bhudo, because that's not going to give you an answer. Your love may be just as strong for both of them, but it won't be the same so the symptoms are going to be different. Yea, symptoms...I sometimes think love is a disease like they say. Have you caught it for Bhudo? Sounds to me like the very confusion and anger you have are the answer - yes.
Tai: When you fell for V I bet it was sort of like someone hit you in the heart with a brick, right? Well, this Bhudo love is the sort that has grown on you. Of course he's also taken you by surprise by announcing his love, but hey, at least you don't have to wonder about him do you? And he wants you to be his girlfriend? Well, why not give it a try? I mean, you aren't talking marriage here, Princess. Girlfriend is a first step - it's a way to see if love is the "real thing" or just a passing fancy. And if you worry about what other people think, then you know most folks these days think sex is ok if you have committed enough to be someone's "girlfriend". If it were me? Hell if it were me I would have jumped Bhudo's bones the first time I saw him - girlfriend, boyfriend or society's opinions be damned...that is one hot piece of dragon meat...sorry about that - overcome by a moment of pure lust! hahahaha If I were you, Princess, I'd be his girlfriend because it would give me the chance to really see if the love was there.
(out of nowhere Naoki pounces in front of the camera)
Naoki: TAI! Na'ki sit with you?
Tai: Naoki...*heaves heavy sigh* where are your pants? You know the Jenny girls flip out when they see you naked and I have to use a cattle prod to get them to leave you alone.
Naoki: (only looking moderately contrite) Pants suck. Na'ki not like pants.
Tai: *sighs again* I know, but try to wear them when you are out of our room, ok? Women around here can't handle the sight of you like that...it gets them all warmed up.
Naoki: Yes, Tai. Na'ki promise.
Tai: Well, come on and join me up here, I'm sending a message to the Pink Princess - Warrior of Love. Also known as Cora.
Tai: Sorry about the naked Naoki, Cora...but...well...you heard him. He's harder to keep pants on than an old man with Viagra at a stripper's convention!
(Naoki growls at the comment as he climbs onto the bench)
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