Happy Holidays Corina. I'm sorry I have taken so long to answer you. This is actually the first free, sane moment I've had in a while. I think the last message I sent was to Locke. I'm in Zermatt. There's a lot of Earth's Fright here. It's very cold. A lot like Osire. Before I left I had a chance to send a short message to Locke. I think he stole your phone. He called Ryll. I never thought to give you my number. I liked seeing your face much better. I do have a phone in my room. The number is 808-744-****. Use it to call me anytime. I have to take time to choose a cell phone soon. That way you can reach me wherever I am.
I still can't believe that you're not jealous in any way. But, I suppose if I really thought about it, I can understand why. You have the gorgeous Mr. Vincent. He's not my type, too calm, but I can see why you like him. You have nothing to worry about from me. But you can't change your mind about Locke. He's mine now. You can't have him back. Ever! One day I will ask you about him, but for now, you are correct, I would be jealous. A small part of me already is.
I trust you will keep my feelings about Locke to yourself for now. I am told that the men of Earth run away when such things are made known to them. If he is to abandon me, I want time with him first. Although, I suppose that abandoning me before would be best. Eden, I can do nothing about until she is ready. When she is, she will come to me. I will answer her then. Sooner or later Locke will have to answer Anschul. Sin is simply watching and waiting.
Deimos......is my brother now and nothing more. We are bound and nothing can change that, but nothing will ever come of it. We have decided. He was kind to me. He took my fear and worry and made it pleasure. He made sure my pain didn't last. I don't know exactly what you want to know when you ask what he was like. If you mean his lovemaking, he is like the wind that he loves so much. A gentle breeze in the beginning, then a storm, finally a tornado leaving devastation in his wake. I fainted. That embarasses me greatly. I don't faint. That is the best I can do.
Really I would rather forget. Immediately after, I felt as if I had betrayed myself.......and Locke. I don't like that feeling. It will not be repeated.
The baby moving.....now I'm really jealous. I wish I were Eden right now. I could be touching that. Maybe.........
I'm sending you a very special surprise Corina. It should be there tomorrow. *giggles * I hope you like it. And no kissing Locke for New Years. He can wait for me to kiss him on the next New Year's if he will have me. See you again soon. I love you.
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